That's the end of that...

Well I didn't get the job I interviewed for last week.  I have mixed feelings about this.  While it did seem like a nice place to work, and the money was good, in the end I think it was kind of good that I didn't get it.  I would have most likely ended up being miserable there.  It wasn't part of my media backup plan so I can only hope that something else will work out for me.  I'm going to do that play then.  It is a little beneath me, but I could use the practice, the exposure, and another credit on my resume.  It's all good.  It's gonna be a lot of money to travel there but hopefully it will be worth it.  I just hope none of the people I went to school with are in it.   God, I hated the hoity toity people in my theater department.  I'm pretty sure they believed their shit didn't stink.  However, I will just have to deal with it if they are in the play.  I also contacted my old temp agency in that city so I could get some temp work while I'm there so maybe I'll be able to do that.  Get some moolah in my pocket.  In other news, someone did reach out to me at an ad agency--and I think that's great. The woman I spoke to over the phone was a little uninspired, but I wouldn't be working with her anyway.  I would be supporting a team, and that's a little intimidating, but I think I could do it.  They said there would be absolutely no opportunity for growth, but I think it would be cool to get my foot in the door someplace like that.  So there are a lot of opportunities in my future nothing solid but I do feel positive today.  That's it peeps.  Seacrest out.

10 Things I learned while being unemployed...

Hello my faithful readers!  Yes all two of you!  (According to my stats, I have a reader in Australia.  Is that true?) So, it has now been over a month since I left my craptastic job, and it has been quite a learning experience.  A very hard, shitty, learning experience.  On to the list:


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10.  Soap Opera characters give their children THE WORST names.   I mean why on earth do the writers give the characters such awful names? Names like Starla, Babette, Dodo (OK, to my knowledge, no one has been named Dodo on a soap) Do people really name their kids this? (I mean real people. Not celebrities)  Whatever happen to nice names like Sophia, Brittany, or Christopher? Names us common folk can relate to.

 9.  There are some HR people (this goes for casting directors and agents as well) on the mindset "this is New York. New Yorkers are tough.  I'm gonna be tough on you for no reason at all because this is a hard city."  I get it, New York is a jungle.  Only those of us who have been here for awhile see it for what it is.  Not the Gossip Girl/Sex and the City place you see on TV.   (It's much more like Law & Order: SVU.)  If I don't have a period in my resume where one needs to be and it pisses you off to no end, either don't call me in for an interview, tell me when you schedule me for the interview, or just point it out when I'm there.  Please do not BARK at me. Yes, I should have caught it before hand. However, do people have to be so fucking aggravating and harsh?  I DON'T THINK SO!!!!  But they feel like they must so that's that.



8. Proofread your resume. Multiple times.



7.  Starbucks is awesome!  OK, so I knew the coffee was great, but the actual experience can be fantastic as well. I needed a place to write and do some work before an appointment.   I decided to go to Starbucks for a few hours.  I bought a coffee and stayed there for about 6 hours.  Did they ask me to leave? Hell no.  On the contrary, they gave me samples of two of their newest Holiday creations. Which I thoroughly enjoyed. Plus the music there is kind of good. I downloaded 2 of the songs I heard while I was there ( a Josh Groban song and a Patsy Cline one).  Also, the people watching was great.  It was really heartwarming to see Starbucks employees treating every person in a friendly manner. From the fashionistas to the homeless.   Yay Starbucks!



6.  Having  a large amount of free time makes you think about stupid shit that happened in the past. I am so bored out of my mind at home;  I keep replaying my summer breakup.  Could the relationship have ended differently?  Probably not. I keep thinking about it because I am busy with nothing.  I also think about stupid things that happened in high school and college.  "If I would have done this, I could have more successful right now."  Who knows?  But I totally hate thinking about things that are out of my control.



5.  I am unemployed.  I live with my parents.  I have no car.  Many people would qualify me as a loser (at least on paper).  Being a loser, you really find out who your friends are.  There are certain  "friends"  who laughed and spent time with me when I was successful.   However, now that I'm a loser, they think it's contagious and don't want my loser sickness to spread to them.  So they'll be really busy, you know, until I eventually become successful again.  Anyway,  I found out I had a few of these " friends" in my life.  I also realized I have genuine friends as well.   When you tell a good friend you're a loser, they will either say "No, you're not," or "Yes, you are."  But they will always support you and never abandon you.  In the end, being a loser (on paper) helped me weed out unnecessary people in my life.


4.  I am constantly amazed at how many things go wrong during the 12pm news.  It's like they know most people are working, or putting up with their children and they just don't care.  Words on the screen are spelled wrong, (right, and I get a riot act for a fucking period on my resume) anchors are caught off guard, and the meteorologist says random inappropriate things in the background. My God, I should get a job doing the news at noon!



3. It's real easy to get fat.  Boredom=eating=getting fat.  Enough said.


2.  The world seems to have moved 5 years in the future, while I was only at my job for a little over a year.  MS Office 2007 is absolutely nothing like the MS Office of yesteryear.  I am completely lost when I'm doing an application and I feel rather dumb.  I have to remember that when I'm at any job I need keep up with what's going on around me in case I get fired and/or laid off.


1.  Being unemployed means I get to sleep late. Yeah bitches, I sleep till noon (then I watch the news.) Although, I have been through a lot, sleeping late is effing priceless.  You people may have a nice paycheck, but I'm sleeping when you poor slobs have to wake up at 7 am or earlier so THERE!  Ha!

One Fine Day

Happy Thanksgiving People!   Well, it's Thanksgiving in America anyway.  Today, I gave thanks for a great yesterday.   Yesterday I had a really great interview at a finance firm.  Which finance firm may you ask?  Ha!  Like I would ever tell and risk losing the chance at the job.  It's a reception/administrative assistant position and the money is great.   Nope it's not in the media or publishing nor is it an acting job; but it's a job nonetheless.  Maybe if I get it I could really get my life together.  Get a car, an apartment, and finally get my health together.  This could be good. So I am definitely excited.  The people there look cool as well.  They're younger and slightly more relaxed then the company I left.  Definitely not "fashion show, fashion show at lunch!" type of people which makes me feel a little more at ease.  The only thing that makes this bitter sweet is that if I get this job, once again I am putting my media and acting dreams on hold.   But I could really use the money to at least get an apartment and a few things done.  I suppose it's just never going to happen but I still have to dream and work on it in any way possible even if it's in a limited way, right?   I wouldn't be able to do that play I had mentioned, earlier, either if it's an immediate start.  Oh well, no one gets everything they want, but I guess I can hope.  I just want to live to my potential one day.  That's all I want.  Is it too much to ask for?  Oh well.  But thank God at least I had a a good interview.

Crazy setting.

So It's been awhile since I last posted.  Last week, I was lucky enough to receive a temp assignment for about a month.  I was thrilled even though I was being extremely underpaid for the job.  However, I was just happy to get some work.  It was a job at a creative company with heavy Outlook scheduling.  This, I wasn't used to.  And,  for whatever reason, during my first few days at this assignment my mind  switched to it's crazy setting.  Meaning, I pretty much forgot and/or didn't listen to anything my supervisor  had told me .  I made numerous errors much to my own disappointment and was dismissed from the job after three days.  I can't lie and say I am not thoroughly disgusted with myself.   At times, I feel I fail at whatever I try to attempt in this life..  I just don't understand it.  It's like my brain knows when I really want to exceed at something and then I just unconsciously go out of my way to fail at it.  What sucks, is that now I know the agency that helped me get this job will most likely not need "my services" any longer.  So that sucks a bit harder.  Anyway, I am kind of excited because I got cast in a play and although its more of a "theatrical event" then a play it's at least something.  Only problem is, it's far away and I need a place to stay so that's my obstacle at the moment.  So if I can get that settled, maybe when I do this play I can stop self-sabotaging myself. Soo I will keep everyone posted.  But like always, I'm thankful that (at the moment) I have my health, a roof over my head, and a mom that always supports me no matter what I do.  That's it for now.  Good Luck to all the job seekers out there!

AND ANOTHER THING!!!

Carl Palladino....I mean come on! Who is this person?  Is he really a person?  I feel like he is an SNL skit that has gone horribly horribly wrong. Who hasn't this guy offended?  I know the point of this blog is primarily to discuss my job search but I've seen and read sooo much crap about this guy.  If I had a choice between Carl Palladino and George Bush I would have to to choose former president Bush to be governor of our great state of New York. Palladino.... he's just like wow!  If he even gets elected over Cuomo I may be pack up and move.  Where? I don't know.  But I just might.  OK, this is totally unrealistic; but I would strongly consider it..and then eventually get over it.

First full week unemployed...

Sooooooo, I went to another interview today for an administrative assistant position.  It sucked.  The staffing company want me to still be a receptionist.  I just don't understand these people.  Because I never booked travel for my boss before?  Any person who has used a computer for over a week can book travel.  I don't know why it's a requirement.   I graduated from college in the recent past I'm not an idiot--- I can enter credit card numbers into a computer.  But, they did give me a few good tips re: my resume which I will use.  I don't even know why I'm this upset because I didn't really want the job.  It's in fashion.  I love fashion.  BUT I love television and the media more so maybe it's a blessing in disguise.  I  guess I just don't want to fucked with not having any money for Christmas.  However,  I wanted to quit my job because I didn't want to get stuck. So this is me not being stuck.  FUCK I'm really sick of sounding soooo boohoo my life is sooooo hard, because it's really not.  I'm just scared that I'm not going to find a job I want.

Leisure Time

Sooo after having a lot of fun time in "The City" these past couple of nights I decided today would be a relaxing day.  I'm most likely going to see either The Town or The Social Network but I'm leaning towards The Social Network.  Earlier today I saw a commercial for the movie, Burlesque, with Christina Aguilera and Cher.  As much as I hope the movie proves me wrong, it looks very "Glitter-esque".  I don't know, I'm all for musicals, but Burlesque doesn't look great.  Anyway, I  recently saw a clip of  writer, Amy Rhodes at a fun house on Ellen; and it's hysterical!!  I definitely needed a laugh and this was it.  Enjoy-----Amy Rhodes on Ellen

Moving Forward

So yesterday was an extremely productive day for me.  I went on a ton of interviews and I got called for another for Monday.  I'm still holding out for a Media job though, that's the dream.  However, I'm kind of confused at the moment.   Yes, the media job is the dream but it's a fairly recent dream.  When I was younger I had two big dreams of my life: becoming a working, well paid and very famous actress and owning my own clothing store simultaneously.  So yeah, I think a lot of people want to be famous when they're younger but I can't deny that I love to act and perform and think about both constantly.  It just so damn hard to get into that business and you have absolutely no control over your own career at the beginning (I'm starting to realize that I am a big control freak).  I now want to open my own business one day because I don't want to have to answer to somebody (unless I had a great boss-- which has happened about 3x in my life) It's just is now the right time to do it?  Acting and/or Media are just so based on youth more so than any other industry.  Do I take the leap now, do I still bust my ass and be dirt poor while I still pursue acting with the a chance of having nothing in the future, ro do I start shaping a more stable albeit slightly more boring life for myself so I can have money and stability and a solid future.  I suppose the question is.. Do I take a chance that can either equal extreme happiness or extreme failure or do I just go for something stable. I guess time will only tell....

My first day outta Jail!

So I am currently unemployed.  Clearly, as most bloggers are.  I had resigned from my job a little while ago and left my job on bad terms (more on that in a later post).  So I'm slightly concerned that my reputation will be tarnished in my field and with my former employees and staff members.  It's totally unfair.  But like I've learned early in life--life is "totally" unfair.  I feel very down.  Not because I miss my job---It was a toxic and high school-esque work environment.  But because I feel I am not in control of the situation.  I am not in control of how I am being presented by those people and it sucks.  But regardless, I just have to accept the situation and move on.  So where do I go from here is my biggest question.  My worry is that I won't get a job since these individuals are going out of their way to hurt me.  How can I move on from here?  I am applying to tons of jobs but in the end I just don't know what to do with my life.  I had always wanted to be an actor but that seems to be going nowhere. So my second choice, some type of media job. But these days, you need tons of experience for any entry level job (why is it called entry level if they ask for 2 years of experience? I don't know) I know other people have much bigger problems than this and thank God I have no mouths to feed but this is a crappy situation. It could be worse though, I could be at my old job.